I have been trying to squeeze out an entry for the past couple of weeks now. I wouldn�t call it writer�s block per se, because I have paragraphs of stuff I�ve already written. I just haven�t felt the need as of late to post those thoughts and words. In a way I guess I�ve been censoring myself, partly because I�m afraid that what I�m writing is boring as hell, but another more insidious reason is that I�m censoring myself because I�m afraid I�ll look bad in front of my perceived �audience�.

Looking at my older entries where I spewed my thoughts both good and bad freely and openly, this is a weird switch. Looking further into this I think I discovered the root of my change in mentality. It�s this strange little online community called Myspace. As an experiment, I was keeping a parallel blog between there and here. The difference between that place and here in diaryland is that I have a much lesser degree of anonymity on that other site. That community is so large that people I know in real life, including close family members and even a few RL friends have access to whatever I put in there and as of late I�ve been spending the majority of my online time there, treating this diaryland blog like the proverbial unwanted step-child.

It was upon this realization that I decided to break the whole parallel blog thing I�ve been doing and maybe blow the dust off this blog and renovate it a little bit. If you notice there are a few changes to my template, nothing big, just a few tweaks such as new music and new backgrounds. Since my readership here has dwindled down to almost nothing here @ diaryland, I can once again spew my thoughts here uncensored and keep my �everything is cool� attitude on the other blog. Anyway, that�s all I have time for now. I�m sure you�ll hear from me later�