I apologize for the ambiguity of my last entry. I really needed to vent but I didn�t have time spit out a full-blown entry. Such is the way of life.

Basically, I was beating myself up because I wound up dropping one of my classes. It got to me because school is one of the few things I�ve been doing amazingly well at, then all of a sudden when my back is against the wall, I bailed out and as a result I have once again I felt infinitely humbled. The bad feeling was compounded by the fact that if I just had a little more time and perhaps if I were just a bit more diligent, I could have not only passed this class but I could have done well in it. It was not impossible, I just felt tired and a bit overwhelmed.

After I had some time to think it over, I decided what I really needed to do was cut myself some slack. I don�t have to give 110% every waking moment. There�s always a part of me that is afraid I�ll sink back into the slacker I once was, which is one of the reasons I�m so driven now. I know now however, that me reverting to my lazy old self never going to happen because I�ve already evolved from that stage in my life.

Being in the hole is not a natural place for me. If I happen to trip and fall into another hole, I will grab, claw, pull and climb my way out of it. I just need to find my groove and flow with it. That class was not my groove, at least not at this moment so I dropped it and paid the price, financially at least so there�s no need to beat myself over it anymore than that.

Anyway there are a few other things, but there isn�t much time to get into it now so I�ll stop here and save it for another entry.