Wow, it's been six years. I can't believe I forgot that today was the 6th year anniversary of the death of my best friend and cousin Ray. In a way, I suppose it's better than feeling the varying amounts of pain I felt from losing him from my life. I don't think I've ever had a truer friend than Ray and one of the scariest, most disheartening thoughts I have ever had in my life was facing the possibility that perhaps I will find a friend truer than him.

I guess there isn�t too much I can do about it. I don�t think there is an easy way to move on, especially when a person of such significance in your life dies so suddenly and so unexpectedly like that. I think part of me just needs to forget because the sweet memories seem to be hopelessly intertwined with the feeling of bitter knowing that all those good times and good feelings regarding Ray are indelibly relegated to the past.

But anyway Ray, I�m sorry I forgot about the 6 year thing bro. Life still isn�t the same without you, but I�m doing the best I can, to not only get by in life, but to also somehow find my happiness. I just want you to know that even though the void you left behind in your passing may be getting smaller as the years go by, there will always be that empty space in my heart that will always miss you.

Anyway, I really need to crash right now. It�s been a busy weekend. So until next time�