Sorry I haven't put up a real entry in a while. I've been in sort of a funk lately and have been trying to write about it offline for the past few weeks to put here in my blog. Unfortunately that that entry got huge and hairy and took on a life of its own, kind of like Peter Jackson's rendition of King Kong, minus the cute blonde girl. The reason I'm in such a funk is my situation. Outside of work and school, which I am trying to maintain and excel to the best of my ability, the rest of my life just pretty much sucks.

I've read somewhere that a man in his early adulthood has two primary drives in his life, one towards power, success and accomplishment and the other towards love, companionship and sex. By that rationale, half of my life, referring of course to the lack of female companionship, is out of order. By admitting that such significant half of my life is missing, I am in essence I'm also admitting that I'm only half a man.

It's a tough way to look at things but sometimes a guy has to face reality. Because I am sick with a cold that I've been trying to stave off for the past few days and feel further knocked out from all the late-night cramming I had to do for a midterm exam I took last night in my Distributed Systems class on top of all that, I think I'm going to just pass out early and worry about taming that beast of an entry and posting it some other time. Hopefully that upcoming entry which will explain my funk in more profound detail and maybe help me find where I'm at because I feel so fucking lost. So anyway, I'm just keep this entry short and sweet and end it here so I can get some much needed rest...