2003-12-17 - 4:29 p.m. - sugarcrash...
Ugh... Mental note: Just because a whole table of holiday treats is free for the eating, it doesn't mean you should stuff your face will all that junk. I must have went back and forth 4 times buzzing and crashing each time. In fact, I'm having cookies right now. O.o
Anyway before I was so rudely interrupted my useless meetings, I have to reiterate the suckfest that is going to be my holiday.
First of all I'm mostly broke which means I can't go Christmas shopping. My next paycheck isn't until the 24th which doesn't help matters much. What little I have left has got to stretch until the next paycheck.
I overheard my mom yelling at my sister. My sister, the only one in our family with x-mas spirit wanted to make presents for her friends and buy somthing special for her 2 closest friends. For some reason my mom went ballistic. Yeah OK it was because of the money. So usually I slip my sister some cash to smooth things over, problem solved. This time I had nothing.
Now there's a plan to go visit the family in NY. I don't know. I don't really feel like going. I'd rather stay at home and be alone and not have to look at everyone's face want I tell them I don't have a present for them.
Somthing about the holidays too, when you are single. It just makes it suck that much more. I just don't want to deal with it anynore. I'd rather cut to the New Year's Eve part where I can drink myself to oblivion.
I suppose I can be happy that I'm alive, however in this case I think my life at this moment is highly overrated. I mean it just fucking sucks.
Anyway, I don't wantto think about it anymore. Time to go home anyway...
