For those who read my last entry, I�m doing OK since then. Not fantastic, mind you but I�m OK. There�s nothing like a little Vodka to ease your troubles and render you practically useless the next day. Aside from my usual shortcomings regarding females and dating, it seems that another part of my life is slowly beginning to slip. I�m starting to fuck up with my school. Getting a grade lower than an A, an almost inconceivable notion for the past several years, is now becoming a real possibility. I�m simply not aceing my homework and exams like I used to. In fact, I�m starting to feel like I can�t handle school anymore.

It�s like I�m slowly loosing my energy and drive to succeed. The only thing that�s keeping on track is the simple fact that I�ve already gone too far to allow this to happen so lying down and just letting these things happen to me is simply not an option. I just need to find that hunger that made me go back to grad school in the first place and put myself back in that mindset.

I have to remember that my job now, although it does provide a nice, steady and comfortable flow of income, which affords me financial independence and the ability to go to school, is most certainly not my lifetime career. Although there are certain challenges to the job and some satisfaction derived from doing a job well, I have to remember that none of what I do now in my job at least is career advancing. At best it is experience in the workforce with some technical exposure and that is about it. As such, I�m not going to allow myself to be consumed by it.

So anyway, that�s it for now. Back to the assignments and studying and all that, so until next time...